hey

You're damn sure about what you say. You once heard it somewhere, found pieces of information. Maybe even more than just pieces. Picked them up and treated them like gold. Now you know what it's all about. Did enough research. Studied everything. Now you know and now you're sure about what happened, well yes. Of course, no doubt. It's satisfying to have knowledge, but what's even more satisfying is the abilty to share your knowledge with someone. It pushes your ego, especially when people start to believe in what you have to say. Also, I'm not saying it's wrong to be such a person, but it's scary how easy it is to become confident and really sure about your newly gained pack of knowledge. Nothing in this world is guaranteed, you can't understand the whole thing. Just little pieces of it, that seem to be enough for you to pretend like its everything there is to know .

There is no need to be emotional about it, no need to make other people feel bad about not knowing, because knowing is not the same as understanding. You will never understand what happened back in time if you analyse all history books. Why? Because what you read and feel now and analyse now is totally different from what really happened. Emotionally and mentally you're not and you're not going to be able to ever fully understand it. So stop being so damn sure, you're not capable of it.

Midnight Answer - 2014

This year is going to an end, finally. Well, I don't know about you but I think the idea of REALLY starting off fresh is so appealing that everyone thinks a new year guarantees a new self. I like that though, it's the same with a new notebook. The very first pages are probably the ones that are written very neatly.
Whatever. I'm not quite sure how you feel on New Years Eve, but I usually get very emotional. Most of the time in a negative way. I'm either pissed off or very sad. That's why I try to avoid any confrontation with my beloved ones since I tend to piss off everyone with my mood. Or I try to get drunk and the problem is solved. Kinda. New Years Eve gives me the chance to reflect on all the things I did and most of the time I'm not content with it. Thus leads me to an emotional dilemma since I'm supposed to be happy about the fact that the year ends? And my family members often wondder why I'm acting like this and honstely, I wish it would be differently but New Years Eve is not something I'm looking forward to. Except for the alcohol.
How's your NYE?

xx

Goals

We set goals, we write lists. Most of the time we don't even achieve everything that's written on it, or is it just me? I love the idea of starting new things and making plans on how to accomplish them, but honestly .. actually doing what I claim to do is really hard. Most of the time the motivation for these goals just kinda fade away. Well, okay I can't promise that it's going to be different this time, but I certainly will try not to give up until I've reached them.
One of my biggest goals so far was losing weight. I lost about 10kg last year which made me really really proud. The trouble with losing weight is, once you've lost that weight, you slowly lose track and fall back into your old habits. That happened to me and well, now my goal is to make 'healthy' a habit. A lifestyle. I know it's hard and I'm not sure if I have enough willpower to do it, but I will try.
Another goal is giving my best in everything I do.  Particularly at school. I wanna get into medical school and I know they only take people with excellent grades. So what? My grades are okay, but I think I can do better and I will.
I'm interested in art and art history as well and I don't know why I stopped drawing, but I want to start doing it again. Drawing or rather painting was one of the things I loved to do in my free time and it was wonderful since no one could tell me shit.
These are just a few goals that I have on my mind right now, hm what are your goals?

On how to get shit done

Well hello and welcome to my blog. I don't know what kind of blog mine is or is going to be, but basically I just want to write down my journey on how to find myself. I've been thinking about starting a blog since quite a long time but I never did it, because I know that I won't update it frequently and sometimes there is nothing to write about. My life isn't exciting to be honest and I'm certainly not someone who is passionate about something to blog about it. There are so many fashion blogs and I really admire all those bloggers, because honestly .. they've found something they really love to do and love to share with the internet. Well, and I ..  I kinda have no idea? That's why I wanna try and improve as a person. Also, I'm not very good at expressing myself. It's not easy for me to structure my thoughts and write them down so that everyone understands how I feel.